Thank You

I’d like to take a moment to express some gratitude.  

I owe alot of people an awful lot. Different people have been there for me at different times, in various ways, for different things.  Some would have been there more if I’d have only let them and some may have no idea of quite how much a simple hug, text,  kind word, or just their presence made all the difference in a dark moment. 

It’s hard,  draining and painful to be around someone suffering. When they are hiding it all,  when they reveal snippets and when they compleatly break down and reach crisis. I am so very grateful to each and every person who has supported me over the last 4/5 years.  Wether its been a single brief moment or multiple intense months. 

I’m particularly grateful to those who were there as I began to unravel over the last year and to those who scraped me of the floor and did what they were able to,  when they were able, and when I allowed them to,  in my last 4 months of hell. Thank you to those who shared their own experiences and struggles and made me feel less alone. Thank you to those who are still supporting me right now. 

The list of people I wish to thank is too long to name and some won’t want to be.  So instead I will just say thank you from the bottom of my heart to my family,  my friends,  acquaintances, social media friends, colleagues, health care professionals,  voluntary workers, fellow sufferers and even some complete strangers. I hope you all know who you are. Thank you for collectively saving me.  And the last and hardest one,  the one I also have the most anger towards, thank you to myself for finally accepting the help and starting to believe you deserve it.